Rediscovering my Spirituality

Even writing that title was hard for me! I feel like I truly did lose myself in motherhood, and I’m still working on getting back to being myself, and a big part of that was my spirituality. I want to properly like reignite it within myself and be able to teach my children about it as well.

So for anyone who doesn’t know, I define myself as Pagan. So I worship numerous Gods and Goddesses, and I even named my children after a selection of ones (including Freyja, Odin and Persephone). One of my main reasons for doing this was I wanted my children to have strong, meaningful names, and I feel like I’ve very much achieved that goal.

This year my main goal is to celebrate the Sabbats. I feel like this is a good step to getting back into all of my spiritual ways. So most recently we had Imbolc, and I did a very basic ritual for that (spring cleaning) and I feel like even doing lower effort things is still a step in the right direction. Last year I did celebrate Ostara with my children, and I will be again this year.

For me, a big part of my spiritual journey was actually this blog as well. While I do cover other topics, it all comes back to who I am as a person, and my belief that things will work out best if I work with the correct deities. I am feeling a shift overall in who I am working with. Anyone who has known me from the beginning of my journey will know the first Goddess I worked with was Freyja from Norse mythology, and I no longer feel that connection. I know this is normal, but it also feels like the end of an era for me. I also feel like this was part of why my journey stalled a bit. I do feel called to certain deities currently, and I am currently researching them and how to best work with them, and I’ll share more about that as it progresses.

I am still reading Tarot as well. Probably not as much as I used to, but I am still getting my cards out and giving them a shuffle and seeing what comes up. I am tempted to start doing a daily card pull or even a weekly card pull on my TikTok as I feel like it could be very positive. Plus it will help me reinforce the meanings behind each card. I actually got a new deck recently which I will share on my Instagram. It will probably have been posted by the time this post goes live. Its beautiful, pink and very shiny, all my favourite things!

So really what I am trying to say is that for me part of getting my pink back, is going to be rediscovering myself and my spiritual beliefs. And I want to take you all on this journey with me, while I explore new deities and just rediscover why I love my choice of faith as well. I’m already so excited to chat about all of this, so keep an eye out for the next post!